The End of the World

I have been spending a lot of time online, reading the news and comments that follow the articles. The cruelty that lives in this world today breaks my heart. I have read articles about parents abusing or killing their kids, celebrities being called fat, kids killing kids, kids having kids, and so many other horrible things. I have even read articles about how religion is pointless or how everyone is going to Hell if you don't believe (from one extreme to the next). 

The comments are just as bad. It seems that everything ends in a religious debate. I don't understand why we can't just leave each other alone. I believe in God and things that come along with that. I don't believe people are going to hell because they don't believe, I just don't think they will go where believers will go. Check out the movie "What Dreams May Come" and you will see where I am going with that thought. I don't think gay people are going to Hell because I believe love is love and it is something that we are lacking terribly in this world. 

If you don't believe in what I believe in, that is okay with me. If you want to hear what I believe in, let's talk. I love hearing what others believe in. You won't change my mind and I am not trying to change yours, I just want to compare our thoughts. It's called a discussion, one that doesn't end in a heated argument because I will not argue with you. If you get mad at me for something I say and decide to argue, I may possibly just walk away.

So, why can't others use this method?

The truth is, we are all human. We have flaws no matter what you believe in. One day we will see who is right. Until there we just have to try to get along. We have to show some decency towards each other. But I am not so ignorant that I believe we will all get along one day.

Which is why I think the whole "2012" end of the world conspiracy isn't so outrageous. No, I don't think it is true. I don't think the world is going to end in December, at least I hope not. I have so much more to experience in life (first kiss, falling in love, marriage, kids, retirement) I would love the opportunity to experience it all. 

What I am saying is, if the world did end this year, it's not so surprising. Not with all the hate in the world. Maybe we should be wiped out. Maybe the world should start fresh, whether by God or mother nature herself.  

I can only see the world getting worse. Though, I have seen a rise in people attending church. There was a story on the news the other day that more young people are going to church to find someone to date, instead of going to the bars. When my mom told me that my hopes of finding a worthy mate renewed. Though, not everyone that attends church is a good person. Some only go to put on a front, but that is a story for another blog.

We are destroying ourselves. We fight, we hate, we hurt. And we don't take care of our planet. It would only make sense that mother nature lash out at us and take us down. 

Much Love,

Heather

Just Kill Me Now

I have a sinus infection. NOOO!!! It sucks.

I haven't felt like doing anything and I couldn't even enjoy church this morning. All I want to do is go to bed, which is what I am about to do. The worst part is I can't miss work. I mean, I could, but I am not going to miss out on that money.

My eyes hurt, my head hurts, and I have like zero energy.

And that is why this blog is about to end.

What really sucks though, is when I am sick I get depressed. Everything that I dislike in my life comes to the front of my mind and that is all I can think about. And for some reason the list of things I dislike about my life is huge! And a few things I know I can change.

To name a few: I hate my weight. I, and you are going to call me conceited, honestly think I am a very pretty girl! Seriously. But I feel like my weight dumbs down my...beauty...and makes me look more like a plain Jane.

And I think my plain Jane look has something to do with me still being single. Though that could also be because I am picky or just have my heart set on a certain...idea. An idea that I know I should let go of. An idea that is killing me from the inside out. So, I need to squash the idea, somehow.

Then there is the fact that I have so much to do and don't do any of it. I use the excuse that working a full time job doesn't allow me the time to do much of anything. My mom said something to me today that made me really think. She said "Excuses are the devils work." Yeah, I believe in stuff like that. No, I am not one of these extremist that say God hates anything. My God loves everyone no matter what choices they make in life. And I do believe that when we try to go on the right path that the devil steps in our way. So I need to drop the excuses.

What have I learned today? I have a lot of issues I need to deal with. I need to do what I need to do, stop making excuses and stop holding on to ideas/dreams/wishes that will never come true. I just have to figure out how to do that and if I am ready for the pain that will follow. Mental and physical pain.

My first step: Going to the doctor and getting rid of this sinus infection!

Much Love
Heather