And it's so true. For so long I have looked at slim models and said "I want to look like that." Or even with my writing I always tell people how I want to be as famous as Stephen King! But after Sunday's service I have been thinking so much and reevaluating my goals in life.I have decided that I don't want to be as famous as Stephen King, I want to be bigger! But I don't want to just be famous, I want to be an inspiration to anyone that wants to give up on their dreams. I want to go to high schools and speak to the teenagers and tell them how much they have to look forward too and how, no matter how small, an accomplishment should be celebrated. I think that my writing will get me to that point one day. I just want to inspire young people and even older people to fight for their dreams, cause that is what I am doing right now. I am fighting for what I want and what I believe I am best at.
I have also decided that I will stop looking at these models and comparing my body to theirs. For one...lets face it, I don't have the bone structure of a model. I will NEVER have the curves that a model has. Mine will be fuller and probably sexier. (Ego trip!) I have muscle that will probably never go away unless I get it removed, can they do that? I have been overweight most of my life but I have always had killer muscle (under the fat) and it's not going any where. My bones are what you would call Amazon. They are bigger than most females. I have broad shoulders and wide hips. That isn't going away because you kind of can't really change bone structure. Sad thing is, I didn't get the height that usually comes with the Amazon bone structure. Dangit! And let us not forget Photoshop. Half of the slim perfect bodies we see on t.v. and in magazines now days have been touched up. A tuck here, a nip there, add a glimmer there. It's all about the special effects and no longer about the natural beauty.
I am me. And that is all I can be. It is all God expects me to be. I have to shoot for my own goals, unique goals. I have to stop comparing myself to people that I may never be like, simply because it is not in the cards for me.
I just have to work at being the best me I can be. I give it my all, fight as hard as I can, and push through all the obstacles that stand in my way.
As of now, I have two goals. 1) get fit, healthy, active. 2) Keep moving forward on my writing.
I say, the world needs to stop comparing themselves to one another. That is only going to lead to us becoming discouraged, depressed, sad, angry and finally giving up on something we thought we really wanted. Let us strive to be the best us we can be. I do me and you do you. Who cares what the world is doing, focus on what you are doing.
You is all you can be.
Me is all I can be.
Oh, and we should be having fun, that is how you know you're doing it right. :)
Much Love
Heather
