What to Say

For the first time in a while I have no idea what to write about. Other than the boring babble about my week. So buckle up and possibly grab a cup of tea cause I have some stuff to say.

1. I hate trying to watch tv, which I really don't do often, and my dad starts talking really loud! It's annoying during commercials and even more so when the show is actually on! He will start telling a story during a commercial and his stories are really long! They go beyond the commercials most of the time. And, my dad is so freakin noisy! Just his presence is loud. Maybe I am just tired because this week has been a bit of a strain but still...too much noise while I am trying to watch shows! That is why when I watch True Blood I watch it in my room alone.

2. I am so sick of everyone being so uptight and afraid at work because the "big man" may be watching/listening. I'm sorry but I am so not going to censor everything I say just because I might lose my job. I make simple statements that will not actually offend anyone. The other day I said something about my eyes burning because of the strong cologne in the office (more about that on #3) and my co-worker got all bent out of shape saying I need to watch what I say and that I have no idea how far over my head these guys were. Blah!

3. People bathing in their cologne or perfume. OMG! I am highly sensitive to cologne and perfume. Most of it gives me a full blown migraine. All week I have been putting up with all these "visitors" at work who decided to drown themselves in cologne. My eyes have been on fire and they feel like they are going to pop out of my head. And my head has been hurting so bad I can't focus on my work. Forgive me for being sensitive to the stuff! I can't exactly help it. I honestly think it should be against company policy to wear cologne to work. Too many people have problems with it.

4. So tired! I have PCOS which is a female issue. Evidently it is where my body has more male hormones than it should. It can cause facial hair growth (which thankfully I don't have), acne, and once I decide to have children it could cause me to have trouble having kids. Another issue that it brings is that it causes me to be tired all the time. The good news is there is medication for it. Funny, the medication is for low insulin, so it can be used for diabetes too. I haven't taken the medication but for three weeks now, the doctor tells me it may be a month before I start seeing results. I am so tired of being tired all the time!

5. Sinus infection. I am finally getting over it! Woot! It was horrible.

6. Money, money, money. Today was pay day. I had 30 bucks that I could use on myself. I have to save 10 for a concert next Friday, if I even go now. I bought a new fingernail polish tonight and I have my best friend's son's birthday coming up so I have to get him a gift. There goes all my money. Where is the rest of it? Bills. Actually, student loans. I figured it up and I am paying over 800 bucks a month on student loans. I make about 2,000 dollars a month. Then I have a few personal loans and a credit card. It was so awesome when I first started my job. I thought I had a ton of money. Then reality set in and I realized I had to pay back my student loans. Now, I am very grateful to have the money to pay my student loans, it feels good to pay them. And if things work out I will be debit free in 5 years. I am doing good so far. I don't over spend and I stick to my budget, but it so sucks. I just wan to get my own place, a new car, and go out and have fun. Ugh.

That's it for now. I'm sure I could go on but I would rather not bore you. Hopefully tomorrow I can get more work done on my book. I may even write a poem to share in tomorrows blog. I have a few in the works.

Much Love
Heather

Resisting Temptation

First, sorry for not posting the past two days. Things got crazy, I got tired, I didn't blog. Simple as that. I do realize that I should probably have a few back up blogs for such moments, I just have to actually stay home long enough to write more than one blog. And I have to have more ideas of what to write. I know that my life is not fun to read about. Though I am in the process of changing that.

Now, on to today's blog!

I lost one pound last week. ONE POUND! I am grateful for that one pound but also a little disappointed in myself. I could have done so much more to lose more weight. Though, the good news is, I only worked out twice last week and probably not even 30 minutes on those two days. So this could be a good thing.

Things I would like to work on this week:

• Work out more
• Drink more water
• Make better food options
• Not sleep so much

I will admit that temptation is just to easy to give in to. I fought all day not to eat a doughnut that mom brought home the other day. Tonight, after dinner, I ate that stupid doughnut. I also drank Dr. Pepper and a Pepsi. I didn't log my points for yesterday or today. Yeah, this week is not starting off so good but I WILL be back on track come morning. 

There is so much that I am trying to fix within myself this year. There are so many aspects of me that need to be worked on. I think too much about the things I don't have and thank to little about the things I do have. I need to change that. I need to realize that while I do have a butt ton of bills to pay, I do have a job that allows me to pay those bills and still have a little left over for myself. Even though I may not make it out to see my friend in Colorado this year I know that I will make it out to see her one day soon. And while I may not have a boyfriend I should remember that I don't have someone that wants to know my every move. 

My goal for this week, aside from my fitness goals, is to be more grateful for what I do have. To enjoy the blessings that are already in my life. And while I enjoy those blessings I will focus on what I can do to bring more of those blessings into my life. 

Much Love

~Heather