I just need to rant

Yeah, you should have known it would come soon. Why? Because Heather likes to rant, and I haven't posted anything in almost a week.

Before I say anything I would like to say that I love my friends! Know that, because I am sure you are going to question it after this rant.

So here has what's been bugging me lately.

I am stuck at home just about every weekend. Here lately I have been going out here and there and I have a blast! I love hanging out with friends. I love acting stupid. I love being around people that understand me.

What I don't love is having to ask people to hang out! It has been a while since I had a friend call or text me and say "hey, wanna hang out?" My best friend will ask me to come over to her house, but she has kids...so I guess that is a good excuse. When she is going to go out though she will ask if I want to go. But really that is it.

Most of my other friends will wait for me to call or text them. And then I usually get shot down becuase they already have plans. Just once I want to be bored out of my mind and a friend say "Hey, lets go out!"

I wonder if maybe because I don't drink they don't think I will be any fun? But listen up people! I am awesome and wild! I don't need alcohol to dance on tables or to get out on the dance floor. I won't leave you because I spotted some hot guy that I want to chat up. I won't see other friends and ditch you for them, I may ask them to join us but I will never leave a friend behind.

And best of all, I won't get drunk and forget the awesome time we had the night before. And if I go somewhere with you, you better believe I will be leaving with you.

So I really don't get why my friends don't come to me more often to hang out. I am free most weekends. I even post on facebook all the time if I have plans or not. And then I see all my friends hanging out together having a good time, all while I am sitting at home.

I sometimes wish I lived closer to my friends that I only get to talk to online or on the phone. I bet they would want to hang out every weekend and do stupid stuff that doesn't cost a dime and is just straight up clean fun. Maybe that is the problem. Maybe it's because I still have fun like a little kid. I like to dance in random spots, laugh at silly things, and act like I am a teenager. Is that why my friends don't want to hang out with me? Because I act so much like a kid?

Much Love
Heather

Wacky Wednesday: Goodbye Feo

I know it has been a while since I updated. So here it is. A quick update.

Two weeks ago Feo, Ludo and I got an army together. We defeated the king!

Now Feo is back in his home world, ruling his people and taking care of the ones trying to carry out his fathers orders. With Feo's help, Ludo was able to go back in time and save his family. But, because Ludo is an awesome White beast that loves me, he brought his family here to stay for a while. Ludo, his wife, and their two children now live in the underground tunnels that Ludo built. They won't stay for long, just for the summer...well, his worlds summer.

Feo is turning his people back into what they were to begin with, peace keepers of all the universes. He has a heavy task ahead but I have faith in him.

And that is the end of the fight my friends.

Much Love
Heather

P.S. Sorry for the crappy post. I have a few things on my mind and I didn't have time to come up with a good Wacky Wednesday. I haven't posted in over a week so I figured I better post. Things at work have been a little different so I don't get the time at work anymore to write out my blog. I do have a few coming up though. I would like to address my feelings on the Kony 2012 deal as well as a few other serious topics. I will warn you now, I am going to speak my mind and I am sure it will tick a few people off. But that is okay. This is my blog, my home and I can say what I want.

Yay for Friday!

This week has been crazy! Okay, so maybe not as crazy as you would think from that statement, but it was a tad hectic.

It started off normal. Monday was just like any other Monday, boring and lame. Tuesday is when everything got wound up. I finally got my tax money and decided to get my car fixed instead of getting a newer used car. So, I took my car to the shop after work Tuesday. I really just took it in to get it looked at to see how much it was going to cost first.

They check it out and get me a total on Wednesday. They quoted me $990. Okay, Fix it up! I tell them. Though, they had already fixed the A.C. without asking. So no matter what I was going to owe them something for the car. Well, they tell me it should be done Thursday. YAY! I'm going to have my car as good as new.

Thursday I get home from work and wait for the call telling my car is ready. No call. So my mom calls them and they tell me it should be ready in a little bit. Now, I live about 45 minutes away from the place so me and my mom head out to go pick up my car. We get there and the guy says "Bad News." Great! I love bad news! I had also added an oil change Wednesday so my total was now up to $1022

Evidently one of the NEW parts they put on it wasn't working. Just like new things...they never work right. I decide while I am there I want them to go ahead and put new tires on and a front end alignment. I might as well get it all done at one time and while I have the money. The mechanic figures up the cost of the tires and the alignment and quotes me another $390. Okay, I got this, let's do it. I was told it would be ready today.

Today after work I ask my mom if my car was ready yet. She hadn't heard anything so we were still waiting. I get home and what about an hour and we find out my car is ready. YAY! BUT! Oh yeah, here it comes! When they changed my tires they found something ELSE wrong with the car. Ugh! So they fixed it. That is just fantastic, let's keep adding to the bill.

I go to pick up the car and hand over my bank account plus an arm and a leg. Not really. My final total was $1500. Which is great! My car is pretty much new...engine wise anyways. Now, I just have to get a new headliner, a paint job, and hopefully a new radio. But...I have less than $500 bucks to do all that. LUCKILY! I have some friends that paint cars so, fingers crossed I can get it done cheap.

I am so glad it is Friday! I got my car back, going bowling tomorrow night and Church on Sunday. Woot for weekends. But for the rest of the night, I shall play Sims 3 since my computer is letting me play!

Much Love,
Heather

Romeo and Juliet

I know how the story goes. I know that Romeo and Juliet do something terribly stupid and kill themselves because they can't be together. A tragic love story that just makes me angry really. 

Today I wondered though, did they find each other in heaven. Or are they forced to yearn for the one they love for all of eternity. Lovers torn apart for all of eternity. What it boils down to is I have always been told that people who commit suicide go straight to hell. So, since Romeo and Juliet both killed themselves they went to hell right? I think that idea is more tragic than the secret romance they shared in their lives.

On a serious note though, I want to express my opinion on suicide. Again I say, go watch the movie "What Dreams May Come." I don't know why but that movie makes more sense to me than anything I have ever read, heard, or seen. 

As I stated, I was raised being told that people who commit suicide go straight to hell. Now, in "What Dreams May Come" the mother kills herself and becomes a lost soul in hell. Each person has their own kind of hell, just like they all have their own kind of heaven. I actually find this more acceptable than the idea that people just burn in hell for their sins. 

What I wonder about most though are the young kids that commit suicide. By young I am including teenagers in this...and I totally just made myself feel old calling teenagers kids! There are so many teen suicides now days! As the suicide statistics go up the ages seem to go down too! These poor kids are being beaten by parents and other kids, both physically and mentally. Life gets so bad for them that all they can think is how bad they want out. Saddly, for some, they think that the only way out is through suicide. 

It breaks my heart! I want to reach out to every child and teenager that thinks of killing themselves. I want to hug each one and tell them that they are loved! And this is coming from someone that doesn't really like touching people or telling someone I love them! I sit back and read the stories as they scroll across our screens. With each suicide and suicide attempt I feel like I lose another piece of my heart. 

Where are their parents and friends? Why are schools looking the other way as the "geek" gets pushed around? Why are parental guardians ignoring their childrens cries for help? And why are parents adding to the heart break a kid has to go through?

I just heard a story the other day about a 10 year old girl who got off the bus just so her mom could yell at her. She told the girl how big of a mistake she was and how she should have never been born. Why in the world would you tell such a precious child that? 

I think parents are forgetting what a blessing their children are. And I think with the loss of that comes a loss of human decency. Which is why more kids are being picked on now. Have you seen how bad the bullying has become in the schools? 

To any parent that may read this, pay attention to your kids, they are more than likely begging for your attention. To any lost teenagers that may be reading this, I don't know you, but I care. We have to start taking care of one another. We have to stop this horrible problem. We have to pay more attention and we have to listen for the cries for help. 

As for the kids, teenagers, and even adults that have committed suicide, I pray that there is some mercy in death for you. I know life can get hard and some people just can't deal because they don't know where to go to find the strength. For the kids, teenagers, and adults that have attempted or even thought about it, find help before you do something that can not be undone. 

Life is to precious to give away.


Much Love,
Heather

Sunday Service #1

So, I have decided to start something new on here. I go to church every Sunday and I felt like maybe I need to share what I learn from the service.

Since I started going to church again a lot of things have come to make sense. I'm not as stressed and I don't get as angry as I used to. I am happier now then I have been in a long time. My goals in life have become a heck of a lot clearer too.

Now, I want to share the changes in my life. I want the internet to have a front row ticket to the things God has given me in my life. I want to share the learning that I get in church.

If you don't believe in God, that is okay, I am not forcing you to read my Sunday post. If you disagree with things that I say, feel free to tell me so, I don't mind. Do not come here and tell me that God is not real because I know that He is real. If you don't believe, I don't have any proof that can change your mind and I won't try to change it. I ask that you respect me and my blog by not forcing your own beliefs on me. I am open to hear what you have to say, in a friendly discussion.

As for today, what Apostle said opened my mind to a few things. What I learned today is that, while I pray, I can not sit back and let God do all the work for me. God will give me the strength and the tools to do what I need to do. It is up to me to use those tools and strength in the right way to get me where I want to go.

So much more was said today. It was an overwhelming service and I can not wait till Wednesday for another service. Since I just decided to do this blog like...5 minutes ago I didn't write notes or anything to add to my blog. I can't remember what scriptures were read from, but next week I will be more prepared.

As I said previously, if you don't want to read it, skip my Sunday post. If you have some hateful comment towards what I have posted, keep it to yourself. This is something that I have found I enjoy and I hope that while I pay more attention to service I will learn more.

I hope that many can learn more from me and find a new peace as I find my own.

Much Love and God bless
Heather

Throw a Tantrum

It doesn't matter how this came up or why my mind went there. All that matters is that it's a good idea! 

I will be nice and explain how it came about though. One of my cousins felt like she was going to have a panic attack. I so know what that is like as do a lot of other people. She mentioned something about sitting in the floor and throwing a tantrum like a 3 year old. 

Now, I throw tantrums already. No lie. I get tired and cranky and I will just tantrum out. Usually it's late at night and I realize I forgot to feed the cats. Stupid cats. Not really, I love my kitties. 

Thinking about how I usually feel better after my childish tantrums struck an idea! The British have tea time, the Islamic (is that right?) has prayer time everyday. America, we are one messed up country. The only thing to do in our situation is to have a tantrum. I'm thinking about every day at 5pm for about 15 minutes we should all just tantrum out! We should fall to the floor and pound our fist into it, kick our feet and scream. We should just up and down and fling our arms everywhere and scream at the top of our lungs. 

Could you imagine that stress relief? Also, with lower stress levels couldn't that lower crime rates too? Most people do crimes because they are angry or stressed. Yeah, some people are just stupid but let's focus on the ones who have just had it with the world. Poor people steal. Angry people fight. Being poor = stress. Angry = stress. Let's get rid of any emotion that is not happiness. Everything else just equals stress. 

How do you relieve stress? THROW A TANTRUM! Adults have more of a right to it than kids.

Go on, give it a try. You and I both know you want to.

Much Love,

Heather

5 Reasons it Sucks to Work Full Time

Today I realized something. Sometimes, having a full time job sucks.

With this thought I decided to put together a list of reasons why.

1. Most people spend about 17 hours a day awake. With a full time job you spend at least 8 of those hours at work. For me, I spend an hour getting ready, 30 - 45 minutest to get to work and 30 - 45 getting back home. There is already 10 hours of my day.

2. If you work first shift, like I do, you get off work just in time to rush to get things done before everything closes up. I get off work around 4 everyday, take in the time to drive, the fact that banks and offices close at 5...it's a rush to get anything done. (Luckily my mom helps me out.)

3. Not many doctors offices or dentist stay open past 5 or 6 pm. So if you have medical issues you have to miss work. Missing work means one of two things, (1) You miss out on those few hours of money. (2) You have to stay even later the rest of the week to make up for it. Not cool.

4. By the time you get home you are so tired you can't do much of anything. This may just be me...but once I get home I am whooped. Today I came home from work not realizing how tired I was. I sat to watch a little T.V. to chill out, I woke up two hours later. I so did not mean to fall asleep.

5. All day you think about ALL the things you could be doing if you were at home or not tied to a desk.

So there you go. The 5 reasons it sucks to have a full time job.

Tomorrow I will give you the 5 reasons it rocks to have a full time job. Cause every negative thing usually has at least one positive thing to counter it.

To all you full time employees out there, I feel your pain, but I love the money!

Much Love,
Heather