Wacky Wednesday: Meet Feo

First, sorry for not blogging yesterday. I forgot because I was working on my book and then did my work out and then Glee came on. I usually write a blog around 8 when my shows start. But I was totally lost in Glee last night. Forgive me?

Today was a little weird. My co-worker is taking a class or something for the next, like, four weeks. This means I get the fishbowl all to myself. I usually see my co-worker first thing in the morning for about 10 to 15 minutes. This morning he wasn't in the fishbowl and hes laptop is gone. We are not allowed to take any company owned stuff home, so I knew he didn't take home yesterday. No co-worker in sight, but there was an extra chair sitting in our fishbowl. I thought it was odd...but I didn't think much else of it. 

I was super tired today. I could hardly keep my eyes open. Those dang fairies were playing all night last night and sleep didn't come easy. At about 8:30 (I start work at 7) I got up to walk to the restroom, hoping to wake myself up a bit. It didn't help much, but I did notice that it was rather quiet today. The machines are going as usual and as loud as usual. What wasn't usual was the silence of the creatures that are forced to work here. If you check out my blog from last Wednesday you will know what I'm talking about. Then I felt the silence...the silence that was in their minds. Even the fairies I keep in my pocket started shouting up warnings to me. 

I started walking up the steps to get back to my desk. The steps have two levels. You have a few steps, a kind of landing pad and then the rest of the steps. I made it up the first set with no problems. The second set gave me problems. Evidently a few goblins had made it into the building today. 

As you know, goblins come in all shapes and forms. These were the ones that look like wingless fairies. Cute but deadly. They noticed me, heard my fairies and decided to "help" me up the steps by pulling on my shoe. Of course I fell. Luckily the fairies made it out of my pockets before my massive weight crushed them. My shin and hand didn't make it out as nicely. Not only did the goblins trip me, but they threw my shoe back down the stairs! I was furious. And without thinking, I threw a curse at them...let's just say, I will have a few angry goblins waiting for me at home today, waiting for their broken loved ones. I am keeping them in my desk draw and one of the fairies has taken guard over them.

I got back to my desk with fairies in one pocket and the goblins in the other. That's when I noticed the extra chair again. Something about that extra chair. Then it blew in my face. The creature that was quietly camouflaged sitting the in the extra chair, right behind me. I don't know how I missed him earlier this morning, maybe because I was so tired. The poor goblins were only trying to help me wake up so I could sense the thing. It is also the reason all the other creatures where quiet today, they sense it too.

You are probably dying to know what it was, right? It is one of my greatest enemies. It is more than any creature you find in this world or even the next. A creature from a demesion all their own. A parallel universe that no one or no thing dare go. They are worse than demons, stronger. They are prettier than any angel. They slowly seep into our world trying to take over like they have taken other demensions. It would not be good for us if they did take over. We would become like cattle, breed for food and slaves. You think the world is bad now, these creatures will make it so much worse. To the point where we would rather kill ourselves than be stuck here. Only...they will take over heaven and hell too. There would be no escape from them.

This one in particular, the one that has been watching me all day, has a name he has given me. He goes by Feo. It's short for something crazy, I'm sure. Feo is different from the others. He is a prince. The king of these creatures, the one who orders them to leak into our world, is Feo's father. Feo thinks its wrong what his father has done and since I was the first to find him I have been drafted to help him save this world, his world and all the other worlds his father has destroyed. How great is that? (Imagine I said that in a sarcastic tone, because I did.) Yes, the creatures are all afraid of him, they don't trust him. I have always see good in everyone and I trust way to easily. 

Feo has come to tell me of his fathers new antics. And to hide in my closet for a few weeks. Silly thing has got some angry creatures after him. 

Yall are so lucky to have me protecting the world.

Much Love

Heather

Stupid Cops! (part 2)

If you have been following my blog then you remember this blog: Stupid cops! and if you don't then...go read that and come back. Don't worry, I will wait.

....waiting.....waiting...

Done!

I had someone that thought they could get the ticket taken care of. Then I wouldn't have to pay and I wouldn't have more points taken off my license ( I just got two taken off in December for another speeding ticket.) But the cop was a douche! He told them for me to come in on my court date, which was today at 4pm, and talk to him and he would see what he could do for me.

I got off work early today. Did the speed limit all the way to the court house, tracked down the cop and talked to him. Well guess what...HE COULDN'T HELP ME! He says he could write me a ticket for careless or reckless driving...or something like that. If I had a clear driving record I would have to pay 25 bucks MORE but it wouldn't take my points away. BUT...haha! There is always a but in things like this! With my ticket back in December he wasn't sure they would drop the 2 points. So if I went that route there was a chance that I would end up paying the extra 25 dollars AND getting 2 more points off my license.

Dear Mr. Cop...YOU SUCK MONKEY BALLS!

Sure, I shouldn't have been speeding. But he caught me as being at the end of the line of cars going over the speed limit! He was just looking for someone to meet his monthly quota. Blarg on you! I got off work early for nothing!

THEN. Yeah, there is a then! When I went to pay the ticket I had to use my debit card, because who carries cash now days? And they charged me another 3 bucks to run the card! It's funny because when the cop gave me my ticket in January he said that they were not trying to take my money, they just wanted me to slow down. Again, Dear Mr. Cop, you have proven yourself a liar!

Now I have to wait and see if my insurance goes up. And if it does my mom is going to make me pay the difference because she can't afford it. There goes any extra spending money I may have come across on a lucky day.

I blame my lead foot! It's not my fault that the government kidnapped me in my sleep one night, filled my foot with lead and returned me to my bed before I woke up and anyone noticed I was gone. Shame on you government.

It is the American way...no the human way, to never take blame for your own actions. It is ALWAYS someone else's fault.

Much Love (Unless you are a cop)
Heather

Just Dance

We are in a new week. No matter what happened last week, we get a fresh start this week. We get a chance to make healthy choices, make smart choices, have more fun, worry less and make the best of the new week.

So I say, go out and dance! What better way to feel better. Dance in your room, dance in the front yard, dance at church (you can at my church) go to a club and dance the night away. Or...just do something that is fun.

I think we all take life to seriously sometimes. We forget that it is not "all work and no play" because "all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy." (I love Stephen King.) I say it is time to wipe away our serious face and have a little fun. Laugh at the stupid things, giggle at the things people say that strikes our dirty minds and just live it up. I for one am tired of fearing that I will say the wrong thing. I am tired of sitting at work fearing that I will get fired because I didn't live up to their standards.

This week I am going to put my worries behind me and just have a little fun. I know that in the end I will be where I need to be no matter what I have done. I am a firm believer that the job I have now is only a place holder for the awesome job I will walk into in the near future. I just need to learn a little discipline.

Let's have fun this week and just dance through life.

Much Love
Heather

Lazy Day

I had a wonderfully lazy day today. In fact, I am STILL in my pajamas and it's almost time for bed again. I don't get a lot of days like this. Weekends are meant for resting and I don't do that often. I am usually on the go all weekend.

Today I was going to go to a financial thing this morning but decided not to go. I was going to sleep late...I got up at 8:30. Not as late as my usual weekend mornings, but three and a half hours later than through the week. So technically I did sleep late. Then, I laid in bed all day, doing nothing at all! I watched t.v. and caught up on all my favorite shows. But that was it.

I had plans on working on my book but you know, we all need a lazy day every once in a while. I have been so wore out this week from being sick and then having to put up with the cologne issue at work. Tomorrow is church and grocery shopping but I am hoping to be home in time to do a little work on the book. It WILL be ready for March 21st release.

This blog really has no point. Just rambling.

Much Love
Heather

What to Say

For the first time in a while I have no idea what to write about. Other than the boring babble about my week. So buckle up and possibly grab a cup of tea cause I have some stuff to say.

1. I hate trying to watch tv, which I really don't do often, and my dad starts talking really loud! It's annoying during commercials and even more so when the show is actually on! He will start telling a story during a commercial and his stories are really long! They go beyond the commercials most of the time. And, my dad is so freakin noisy! Just his presence is loud. Maybe I am just tired because this week has been a bit of a strain but still...too much noise while I am trying to watch shows! That is why when I watch True Blood I watch it in my room alone.

2. I am so sick of everyone being so uptight and afraid at work because the "big man" may be watching/listening. I'm sorry but I am so not going to censor everything I say just because I might lose my job. I make simple statements that will not actually offend anyone. The other day I said something about my eyes burning because of the strong cologne in the office (more about that on #3) and my co-worker got all bent out of shape saying I need to watch what I say and that I have no idea how far over my head these guys were. Blah!

3. People bathing in their cologne or perfume. OMG! I am highly sensitive to cologne and perfume. Most of it gives me a full blown migraine. All week I have been putting up with all these "visitors" at work who decided to drown themselves in cologne. My eyes have been on fire and they feel like they are going to pop out of my head. And my head has been hurting so bad I can't focus on my work. Forgive me for being sensitive to the stuff! I can't exactly help it. I honestly think it should be against company policy to wear cologne to work. Too many people have problems with it.

4. So tired! I have PCOS which is a female issue. Evidently it is where my body has more male hormones than it should. It can cause facial hair growth (which thankfully I don't have), acne, and once I decide to have children it could cause me to have trouble having kids. Another issue that it brings is that it causes me to be tired all the time. The good news is there is medication for it. Funny, the medication is for low insulin, so it can be used for diabetes too. I haven't taken the medication but for three weeks now, the doctor tells me it may be a month before I start seeing results. I am so tired of being tired all the time!

5. Sinus infection. I am finally getting over it! Woot! It was horrible.

6. Money, money, money. Today was pay day. I had 30 bucks that I could use on myself. I have to save 10 for a concert next Friday, if I even go now. I bought a new fingernail polish tonight and I have my best friend's son's birthday coming up so I have to get him a gift. There goes all my money. Where is the rest of it? Bills. Actually, student loans. I figured it up and I am paying over 800 bucks a month on student loans. I make about 2,000 dollars a month. Then I have a few personal loans and a credit card. It was so awesome when I first started my job. I thought I had a ton of money. Then reality set in and I realized I had to pay back my student loans. Now, I am very grateful to have the money to pay my student loans, it feels good to pay them. And if things work out I will be debit free in 5 years. I am doing good so far. I don't over spend and I stick to my budget, but it so sucks. I just wan to get my own place, a new car, and go out and have fun. Ugh.

That's it for now. I'm sure I could go on but I would rather not bore you. Hopefully tomorrow I can get more work done on my book. I may even write a poem to share in tomorrows blog. I have a few in the works.

Much Love
Heather

The Truth Behind the Diet

Everyone has their own reason for trying to lose weight. Some want to be healthy, some want to fit into their skinny jeans, others just want to be happy with what they see in the mirror. And some lose weight because family, friends, spouses or boyfriends/girlfriends tell them they need to. You are always told to lose weight for yourself and no one else. Most of us are doing it for ourselves. 

I am trying to lose weight for none of these reasons. Okay, well, I want to look cute in certain clothes and I want to be healthy. My main reason for losing weight though...is something that is going to get me in trouble with any friends that read this blog. 

The reason I want to lose weight so bad is because I feel like I take up too much space. If I lose weight I will be smaller...meaning I take up less space. I can't explain it, maybe it comes from my years of being picked on and falling into a depression. Maybe I am not completely out of the dark waters of depression. But I feel like I have always taken up too much space. I feel like I am always in everyone's way.

It goes as far as calling and texting people or even just talking to them. You can ask a few friends of mine, I never call them, they have to call me. And only a few have convinced me that it's okay to text them whenever. I don't know why I feel like this, I just do. If I could become invisible and people could walk right through me, I would be happy.

I almost feel like I don't deserve to breath or take up space and that I waste everyone's time. I feel like everything that is me is a waste. Space, air, and time wasted on me could be used to do something else. Something useful and productive. 

Now, I think I am an awesome person. I just don't like to get in the way of other people. This is also the reason I don't like touching or hugging people. I don't like standing to close to people. 

I keep thinking that if I lose weight it won't be as bad. Though, I fear that once I get to a healthy weight I will try to lose more so that I can be smaller. I can see this becoming a very unhealthy habit. Which may also be the reason that a sabotage my own weight loss. I fear becoming obsessed with being smaller and I fear taking up to much space. HA! It's the never ending story.

So there is my secret. My truth behind my diet. It's crazy. It makes me sound like I am super unhappy with myself. It makes me sound like I have have low self esteem. Well...I kind of do when it comes to the way I look. My personality though, will blow you out of the water! 

So, my goal is to lose weight in a healthy way. I just have to keep reminding myself that I deserve to be here as much as everyone else. Yep...but it won't be easy. I will always have the fear that I don't belong, that I just take up space, that I am a waste of life. I add value to everyone's life that knows me. Just because I am fun! 

Much Love

Heather

Wacky Wednesday

Wacky Wednesday is back! Enjoy.


There are so many noises going on in the building where I work. I am starting to wonder if maybe the whole car making deal is just a front. 

I have heard a howl of a werewolf, the beating of a giant trying to escape, and the tinkling of fairies.

What other mythical creatures could be hiding in this plant? Maybe the creatures where captured and now are forced to make cars and when the cars are sold the profits go to hunting down and caging up more creatures! Have they told them they could go free if they made cars for them? Do the creatures are working for their freedom, but most die here from horrible working conditions? 

The giants cry. Have you ever seen a giant cry? It's not pretty and it's terribly heart breaking. No matter what you read or hear about giants, they are the kindest creatures you could meet. Just don't make them mad. I am sure the humans that have captured these creatures know the secret of trapping and keeping a giant. I will not share that info with you. I don't want any more people to know about it. 

I wonder if they use unicorns for pulling and carrying the heavier items. They are stronger than horses and cheap...when you steal them. Everything is cheaper when you steal it.

It's just sad to think that I am working for a company that cages up these beautiful creatures. They can't live long out of their natural habitat. Giants need the trees to soothe their sore backs. They are tall and the trees produce the sap to help ease the pain of such long limbs. Fairies need to be in those trees to make sure the sap is being created. Fairies also need to be protected by the armor of the tree when the gnomes come hunting.

And unicorns...well, they need the magic of the forest to keep their strength. Did you know that a unicorn can live forever in it's own world. The forest cares for the unicorns. In return the unicorns use the magic in their horns to heal the other creatures. 

It is a shame that the place I work would trap them. I am sure they are using the werewolves to keep everyone in line. One bite from a werewolf can kill any mythical creature...except a vampire, no matter what the movies say. A clan of vampires can save them all. So, if any vampires are reading this right now, you know how to contact me. Please come help.

Much Love

Heather